envy

of those with the big mouths the yammering always something to say
the obvious presences the ones you can’t go around can’t ignore
can’t not see the ones that pronounce what they want and how they want it exactly when they want it
the ones that carry all their weight up their sleeve the unasked questions answered before you can come to think of them

but at least there’s depth to fall down in
at least both sides are entwined
at least our head work from the inside out and the signs are unaligned so we have something to work for — to straighten out

never of partners lovers looks the physical the inexplicable uniqueness of souls close to mine
the shrine of a kiss dismissed by the listed reasons to fall behind
and the minds uneasy trying to figure out their worth by rambling mirrors

find me a space to settle down in

to write down chaos as if it were my own

my unshown work to be determined by the turns taken by you

truly dismissed now

always surrendered

-D.